Man I worked hard today. I wrote 3 commercial policies today. Hard hard hard. Still not done with them. Tomorrows is a new day. I hope that I can get it all done in the right way (not mess up).
Matt went to Marble Falls with John. He called me earlier and said that he was catching some Catfish. I miss him. The house feels very empty. I guess its no harm in him going down there. Of course I do wander sometimes, but I think that is due to being thrown away once. I guess I will always have this feeling. Matt has never given me reason not to trust him. And all I can do is to trust unless proven otherwise. If I don't it would drive me crazy.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
This Weekend
Friday an hour before I got off work I recieved a call from a big acct that I have been working on. He wants to buy it. It's like a 21,000 dollar acct. That made me feel really good. I work hard at my job and it is nice sometimes to get recognition for my hard work. I really try hard in my life in general to do the best that I can. Thank the Lord for his grace in my life.
Then Teena called and wanted me to take her and try and find something for her to ware to David's wedding. I reall felt like just going home but I said yes. I love my sister and we do not get together very often just the 2 of us. It wound up being a really good night. I found a nice top and a pretty dress for 22 bucks. Teena found hers in that same place. Then Teena offered to buy my dinner. That really surprised me cause that is really rare.
Saturday I worked on my blue room. Its my new room for crafting, stamping and creating. My room. I cannot decide which of the rooms I want to totally make mine. I like the other one cause I can see more of the house from there. Matt wants to keep that one for whatever reason. I guess I will wait until he paints the other room. I guess I should give him his choice since technicly I have the master bedroom and this other room. :) oh well he put me there. Anyway back to my blue room. I love have this space and place. I did get in there and put together a few cards. Then I babysat for Christi and Juanita. I am the babysitter. Dylan would not go to sleep. I would try and lay him down and all he would do is cry. I tried laying him right by me on the couch and he just did not want to go to sleep. When they first got here Eric & Brandon were rough housing and Eric bumped his head on the fireplace. So I had to lay the law down and get them settled down. I guess they were just hyped up from David's wedding (my ex). I was invited to go but I think that is just weird. Plus I did not want to put any damper on Darcy's wedding. I would not want that. I did not want to be sitting there thinking about the what ifs and what was. I don't know its just weird. Its not that I love or want him, its hard to put in words. The Lord knows what is in my heart. Its all in his hands.
I really hope that Christi or Shawna never have to go through what I have lived through. It is really hard to know your place and where you belong. I is an awefull feeling. The family is broken and extended at the same time. Really weird.
I hope and pray for a good week. I already feel tired already.
I pray for grace, peace and rest for all of my family and friends.
Then Teena called and wanted me to take her and try and find something for her to ware to David's wedding. I reall felt like just going home but I said yes. I love my sister and we do not get together very often just the 2 of us. It wound up being a really good night. I found a nice top and a pretty dress for 22 bucks. Teena found hers in that same place. Then Teena offered to buy my dinner. That really surprised me cause that is really rare.
Saturday I worked on my blue room. Its my new room for crafting, stamping and creating. My room. I cannot decide which of the rooms I want to totally make mine. I like the other one cause I can see more of the house from there. Matt wants to keep that one for whatever reason. I guess I will wait until he paints the other room. I guess I should give him his choice since technicly I have the master bedroom and this other room. :) oh well he put me there. Anyway back to my blue room. I love have this space and place. I did get in there and put together a few cards. Then I babysat for Christi and Juanita. I am the babysitter. Dylan would not go to sleep. I would try and lay him down and all he would do is cry. I tried laying him right by me on the couch and he just did not want to go to sleep. When they first got here Eric & Brandon were rough housing and Eric bumped his head on the fireplace. So I had to lay the law down and get them settled down. I guess they were just hyped up from David's wedding (my ex). I was invited to go but I think that is just weird. Plus I did not want to put any damper on Darcy's wedding. I would not want that. I did not want to be sitting there thinking about the what ifs and what was. I don't know its just weird. Its not that I love or want him, its hard to put in words. The Lord knows what is in my heart. Its all in his hands.
I really hope that Christi or Shawna never have to go through what I have lived through. It is really hard to know your place and where you belong. I is an awefull feeling. The family is broken and extended at the same time. Really weird.
I hope and pray for a good week. I already feel tired already.
I pray for grace, peace and rest for all of my family and friends.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Birthdays and Life
Yesterday was my snoogers birthday, she turned 26. WOW! She has grown up be be such a beautiful young woman. I soo pray that her life gets better & better. She moved into her Apt with Jaden & Peyton. I really think that Jaden is so enjoying there family time. They are so sweet. I love them all so very much. Each of them have a piece of my heart. David has been comimg around more and I know that the boys have enjoyed that. Hopefully he will learn to be more a part of their lives. They need there Daddy. I pray for my daughter, for strength and courage. I know how hard it is to go it alone.
Todd's Mimi died last week and her funeral was on Saturday. She was a sweet lady. I am so glad that she took to Christi like she did. I know it meant a lot to Christi. The things that the preacher said about her and Grandpa, one can only hope to have that kind of legacy. I cannot believe that Todd can here that and know that and be the way he is to Christi. Really weird to me. I wish so bad that Todd would get help for his bi-polar. In some ways I believe that he loves Christi but then others , I don't know he just makes me dought.
I pray for my babies and their families. God knows all our needs.
Todd's Mimi died last week and her funeral was on Saturday. She was a sweet lady. I am so glad that she took to Christi like she did. I know it meant a lot to Christi. The things that the preacher said about her and Grandpa, one can only hope to have that kind of legacy. I cannot believe that Todd can here that and know that and be the way he is to Christi. Really weird to me. I wish so bad that Todd would get help for his bi-polar. In some ways I believe that he loves Christi but then others , I don't know he just makes me dought.
I pray for my babies and their families. God knows all our needs.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Another TGIF!
It just seems like time flies by so very fast. WOW! Everytime I turn around another day, its always Monday and its always Friday. If that makes sence. It does to me.
I have had a sinus infection for about 4 weeks. I have not felt well. Plus have had a lot of changes going on. Shawna and the boys moved to their Apt last wensday. I am happy for her. She deserves her own home. The boys do too! I love them all so very much. I think I have felt a little empty nest for the I don't know how many times. I pray for each of my daughters and their families they all mean so much to me. They are my world. My heritage, precious!
I have to find the balance between it all. I have to spend time with my husband Matt. I am thankfull for him. He has been so very patient with me and my girls and the things that we have been through. I know that he loves each of the girls too. And he is experiencing the bond that you get from children. Jaden, Eric, Peyton & Dylan. 4 little miracles. He thinks the world about those boys.
We are having a stamping class tomorrow here at my house. I am excited and I pray it goes well. Juanita has gotten interested and I know that it will be good for her. And Ana really needs to have an outlet in her life too! Shawna is gonna watch the 4 buggers so Christi can consentrate on the class :).
Thanks for listening. I know it is just babble sometimes. Just getting things out.
I have had a sinus infection for about 4 weeks. I have not felt well. Plus have had a lot of changes going on. Shawna and the boys moved to their Apt last wensday. I am happy for her. She deserves her own home. The boys do too! I love them all so very much. I think I have felt a little empty nest for the I don't know how many times. I pray for each of my daughters and their families they all mean so much to me. They are my world. My heritage, precious!
I have to find the balance between it all. I have to spend time with my husband Matt. I am thankfull for him. He has been so very patient with me and my girls and the things that we have been through. I know that he loves each of the girls too. And he is experiencing the bond that you get from children. Jaden, Eric, Peyton & Dylan. 4 little miracles. He thinks the world about those boys.
We are having a stamping class tomorrow here at my house. I am excited and I pray it goes well. Juanita has gotten interested and I know that it will be good for her. And Ana really needs to have an outlet in her life too! Shawna is gonna watch the 4 buggers so Christi can consentrate on the class :).
Thanks for listening. I know it is just babble sometimes. Just getting things out.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Just thoughts!
Well tonight is the last night that Shawna and the boys are living here. Its kinda bitter sweet. I will miss there company. I am glad that she is getting her own place. I hope the very best for her of cource. With or without David. God knows her needs and I always pray for her and her family. I have v=cerntainly felt like 2nd mama to the boys. I hope that they will always have a special bond with there Nanadee. I am sure I will still see them alot. Especially to babysit. I would like to be able to get with her and the boys. We'll see how things go. I am sure its gonna depend on whether or not David is around. Its sad that it is that way. But I am not fooling myself. I know what the deal is. I know that they need there time, but I also know how important it is to do things apart from each other too. You get suficated when you are together all the time.
:( Tom my boss lost his 28 year old son the first week of April. Drug overdose. It has been very sad. He left his son that is only 9yrs old. Tom has been battling trying to get custody of his Grandson ever since his son Tye died. The mother is a drug addict and Tom have proved that but the system is more for children to be with there mother no matter what. It would be ok if the mother would get her stuff together. I am sure she has put really ugly thoughts in Cole's mind. Anyway, Tom came in today and basicly told us all that he is throwing in the towel. Him and his wifew Jana have had it. They are tired of the fight and really have not given themselves time to grieve for Tye. It is really sad. I pray for all involve to find peace and closure. I hope that Stacey will realize that it is important to Cole to see them and have his Grandparents in his life. I know that God sees all things and I pray for Gods grace in there lifes. It has been a very hard thing to be a part of and see all the hurt. You really do not even know what to say. So I pray!
Matt went fishing with some old buddies of his today. I hope that he had a good time. He does not have many friends and needs the out. It seems all he does most of the time is work work work. I hope that we can get closer now. It is hard to have time for our marriage with the kiddos here. Even tho we love them dearly we have to get time for ourselves. I hope that we can spark upthe fire in our relationship. I do love him very much.
:( Tom my boss lost his 28 year old son the first week of April. Drug overdose. It has been very sad. He left his son that is only 9yrs old. Tom has been battling trying to get custody of his Grandson ever since his son Tye died. The mother is a drug addict and Tom have proved that but the system is more for children to be with there mother no matter what. It would be ok if the mother would get her stuff together. I am sure she has put really ugly thoughts in Cole's mind. Anyway, Tom came in today and basicly told us all that he is throwing in the towel. Him and his wifew Jana have had it. They are tired of the fight and really have not given themselves time to grieve for Tye. It is really sad. I pray for all involve to find peace and closure. I hope that Stacey will realize that it is important to Cole to see them and have his Grandparents in his life. I know that God sees all things and I pray for Gods grace in there lifes. It has been a very hard thing to be a part of and see all the hurt. You really do not even know what to say. So I pray!
Matt went fishing with some old buddies of his today. I hope that he had a good time. He does not have many friends and needs the out. It seems all he does most of the time is work work work. I hope that we can get closer now. It is hard to have time for our marriage with the kiddos here. Even tho we love them dearly we have to get time for ourselves. I hope that we can spark upthe fire in our relationship. I do love him very much.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Saturday
I really felt good to be home today. I got out of bed around 9:30 drank my coffee and looked at my emails. My throat has been feeling a little raw and today I have been sinusy. Feeling a little blah! I did my laundry and did a little bit of cleaning in the kitchen. Then I laid down for about 45mins. Got up took a shower and got dressed. Shawna, Me, Jaden & Peyton went to get a bite to eat at Taco Cabana. Then we went to Mama & Daddy's so Shawna could clean her couch. She is getting all her stuff ready to move into her Apt. She got rid of pretty much everything when David left her 6 months ago. I think she just wanted to just restart with fresh everything. I hope it makes things better for her. Really it is a heart thing. I believe that you have to find contentment no matter the circumstance. Not that that is easy. Believe me I have lived through my own roller coaster ride. If you think about it our whole lives are about change and growing. Rolling with the punches. Anyway I really do want her to find herself and find happiness. I love both my girls so very much. They have been such a big part of my life. I am blessed to have them in my life. I hope that I have not done so many things wrong that they will not love me when and if I get old.
My mother is feeling left out. She thinks they are left out of plans. She told me today that she felt hurt not being invited to Todd's birthday. Well what am I suppose to say to her. All I can do is be what I am. Which I have always tried to make sure that I call and go by and see them. Of course I do get busy with crap but I always make the effort. But never recognized for it if that makes sence. Anyway I really don't know the mind of someone else anyway. I also told her that I don't see Christi that much either. I stay in touch with her with Imming at work and at home.
My mother is feeling left out. She thinks they are left out of plans. She told me today that she felt hurt not being invited to Todd's birthday. Well what am I suppose to say to her. All I can do is be what I am. Which I have always tried to make sure that I call and go by and see them. Of course I do get busy with crap but I always make the effort. But never recognized for it if that makes sence. Anyway I really don't know the mind of someone else anyway. I also told her that I don't see Christi that much either. I stay in touch with her with Imming at work and at home.
Friday, September 19, 2008
TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Man what a freakin week. I swear everything was coming at me at work. This job is so draining. I have been working in insurance since Nov 1989. A long freakin time. My girls say to me all the time 'INSURANCE!!!!". LOL!
I really do not mind what I do except being in customer service is very hard. I am good with people and most like me. But you do have to pretty much kiss ass. But I do like that I help people out. But it is very stressfull. I do personal lines and commercial. I think that is really challenging right now. It can be just too much. My brained is fried right now.
I am hoping for a relaxing weekend. Shawna is wanting to go out a little so I think we are going to JC Penney's and get a bite for dinner.
She will be moving this next weekend. So it will be busy then. I will either watch the kiddos or help with her move. One way or the other it will be busy for us all. Makes me tired thinking about it. LOL
I really do not mind what I do except being in customer service is very hard. I am good with people and most like me. But you do have to pretty much kiss ass. But I do like that I help people out. But it is very stressfull. I do personal lines and commercial. I think that is really challenging right now. It can be just too much. My brained is fried right now.
I am hoping for a relaxing weekend. Shawna is wanting to go out a little so I think we are going to JC Penney's and get a bite for dinner.
She will be moving this next weekend. So it will be busy then. I will either watch the kiddos or help with her move. One way or the other it will be busy for us all. Makes me tired thinking about it. LOL
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
New to Blogging
I am new to blogging. My daughter Christi blogs all the time. I thought I would try it out. There are many times that I have ideas and thoughts that need to just be said. So I will talk to you my blog.
Maybe along this journey I will pick up some on-line friends. Who really knows where the day will take you or the decisions you make effect you.
My youngest daughter Shawna and her 2 boys have been staying with Matt & I for 6 months. Her and her husband David have been seperated. Its been really hard. But I do see Shawna growing and maturing. She & the boys are moving into there own apartment at the end of this month. I hope that this will be a positive thing for Shawna. She needs to know that she can do it by herself. I know she can do it. Lord knows that I did.
Christi is building a card company while staying home with her 2 boys.
I work full time and feel like I have no time for myself.
Maybe along this journey I will pick up some on-line friends. Who really knows where the day will take you or the decisions you make effect you.
My youngest daughter Shawna and her 2 boys have been staying with Matt & I for 6 months. Her and her husband David have been seperated. Its been really hard. But I do see Shawna growing and maturing. She & the boys are moving into there own apartment at the end of this month. I hope that this will be a positive thing for Shawna. She needs to know that she can do it by herself. I know she can do it. Lord knows that I did.
Christi is building a card company while staying home with her 2 boys.
I work full time and feel like I have no time for myself.
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