Saturday

I really felt good to be home today. I got out of bed around 9:30 drank my coffee and looked at my emails. My throat has been feeling a little raw and today I have been sinusy. Feeling a little blah! I did my laundry and did a little bit of cleaning in the kitchen. Then I laid down for about 45mins. Got up took a shower and got dressed. Shawna, Me, Jaden & Peyton went to get a bite to eat at Taco Cabana. Then we went to Mama & Daddy's so Shawna could clean her couch. She is getting all her stuff ready to move into her Apt. She got rid of pretty much everything when David left her 6 months ago. I think she just wanted to just restart with fresh everything. I hope it makes things better for her. Really it is a heart thing. I believe that you have to find contentment no matter the circumstance. Not that that is easy. Believe me I have lived through my own roller coaster ride. If you think about it our whole lives are about change and growing. Rolling with the punches. Anyway I really do want her to find herself and find happiness. I love both my girls so very much. They have been such a big part of my life. I am blessed to have them in my life. I hope that I have not done so many things wrong that they will not love me when and if I get old.
My mother is feeling left out. She thinks they are left out of plans. She told me today that she felt hurt not being invited to Todd's birthday. Well what am I suppose to say to her. All I can do is be what I am. Which I have always tried to make sure that I call and go by and see them. Of course I do get busy with crap but I always make the effort. But never recognized for it if that makes sence. Anyway I really don't know the mind of someone else anyway. I also told her that I don't see Christi that much either. I stay in touch with her with Imming at work and at home.